I won't write much about 2011 but I will say that it was a muthaf______ and a son a b_____ rolled into one. Whew! It felt good just to get that out. See, I consider myself a pretty devoted player for "Team Jesus" so I try to choose my words wisely and in a way that will make my husband, mother, and savior proud. But as this year comes to an end, I'll give myself a break and let loose...at least for a bit.
The truth is, I have alot to be grateful for and I don't want that to go unacknowledged before I tell 2011 to go piss off.
For starters, my child's heart defect healed on its own which is a miracle akin to Moses parting the Red Sea in my eyes;
My husband and I made it through our first year as parents alive and still married;
I made it out of this year more happy than sad, more grateful than bitter, more determined than detoured.
On the downside of things, my life was affected by ninja-ery at an epidemic level as our apartment was broken into, my husband's car was broken into twice, for a majority of the year I continued to work at a place where I thought I would get shot, and I am in the midst of a postponed quarter-life crisis - as I have turned 30 but don't have no effing idea what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Yet, as this year comes to a welcome end, I trust beyond all rationale that there is still an invisible hand guiding me along my way. I trust that in the midst of this chaos that things are unfolding exactly the way that they should.
So, while I'm glad to say, "piss of 2011...you can kiss my a___," in the same breath I say thank you to the year that forced me to make some of the hardest decisions of my life, that has made me more courageous, and that reminded me that I write the book of my own life.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
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